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December 2009
December 4th, 2009 05:02 am

i guess, in a way, it's nice to know that you haven't changed.

that it wasn't just me that you treated like absolute shit.

my stomach started churning when i heard that you were asking about how easy it's going to be to get pussy when you leave town, because it reminded me of things that people would warn me about when we were together. i guarantee that she doesn't know about this, but i really hope that she finds this entry and figures it out. (just like i read her journal and found out about your indiscretions years ago.) as much as i really want to hate her, she doesn't deserve this... i didn't either.

if you don't want to be with someone, break it off. don't let them believe that you're happy with what you have when you are telling everyone else otherwise. grow the fuck up. be a man.

i wish you the best... but, you have to deserve it first. and i'm not sure that will ever happen.

Current Mood: cranky bold
Current Music: quiet, quiet, quiet.


January 16th, 2009 04:10 pm

Current Location: the trinity's apartment.
Current Mood: happy happy
Current Music: back to the future.


November 27th, 2008 03:48 am

i have this boyfriend that i love more than anything.

and i have this cat that is goofy as hell.

and most of that time, i just laugh.

and i've never been happier.

Current Location: the trinity's apartment.
Current Music: jason mraz- i'm yours.


November 5th, 2008 12:24 pm

what a great day to be alive.

i have never been so proud to be an american.

i have faith in this country again.

after such a terrible eight years, we really needed this change.

thank you to everyone who voted for barack obama, our next president of the united states.

Current Location: the BLUE state of indiana.
Current Mood: ecstatic ecstatic


September 6th, 2008 03:57 am

i never want to be without him for any amount of time.

i guess that maybe that means something big, but as of right now it means i want him to come home from work and hold me in his arms while we fall asleep in my bed.

i am so in love with this boy.

Current Location: the trinity's apartment.
Current Mood: loved loved
Current Music: it's pretty quiet.


April 23rd, 2008 12:56 am

chloerayneisdead (12:45:55 AM): here's something funny. i found a 'house' for rent that sounded like a really good deal on craigslist. so i told riz and she was excited as well. it was all, spacious yard and back patio, washer and dryer, new kitchen cabinets... so i figured out the address, put it into my gps, drove off, and yeah, it's a fucking trailer. in a trailer park.
infectek (12:48:36 AM): hahaha, score
chloerayneisdead (12:49:24 AM): i was pissed for a second and then i just started laughing envisioning us living in a trailer park and all the wacky adventures we could have.
chloerayneisdead (12:49:46 AM): like, we could throw beer bottles at each other and riz and i could both get knocked up by scott.
infectek (12:49:57 AM): you could start a new trend
infectek (12:50:21 AM): picture a whole strip of indie rockers sitting on their porches drinking pbr
chloerayneisdead (12:50:39 AM): that is my heaven.
infectek (12:50:50 AM): you could make it happen
chloerayneisdead (12:50:51 AM): an indie rock trailer park.
chloerayneisdead (12:51:07 AM): the decemberists playing from every stereo.
infectek (12:51:25 AM): skinny jeans hanging on the clotheslines
infectek (12:51:39 AM): weekly rock band/guitar hero competitions
chloerayneisdead (12:52:03 AM): omg.
chloerayneisdead (12:54:41 AM): now if only i could convince everyone else.
chloerayneisdead (12:54:47 AM): i'll have to post fliers at the f-house.
infectek (12:54:55 AM): it would be like college w/o the learning


February 17th, 2008 04:30 pm

i have no idea what i am doing ninety-seven percent of the time.

i keep making these deadlines in my head, but i've passed several of them, and i haven't changed my mind.

my heart.


one thing i do know, is that i had a great weekend.

my friends are amazing.

we're going ice skating this weekend.

and camping this summer.

life is pretty alright.

i'm going to look for a job tomorrow.

wish me luck.


February 14th, 2008 05:24 pm

i hope everyone, in a relationship or not, has a great time tonight.


January 1st, 2008 12:58 pm

'and it was new year's eve,
but i was thinking of the summer,
knowing that at midnight,
you wouldn't be around.'


November 7th, 2007 01:05 am

he always pronounces my name with a harsh 'r' and it gets to me. i wouldn't let anyone else pronounce it wrong, but when he does it, it's almost charming.

and i keep dreaming about him. i swear, every night, my head rejects the contentment i'm attempting while being independent and i imagine us together. we're running away from nightmares, eating dinner at at seedy diners, and he even holds my hand when we walk the city streets.

i feel like i don't know how to write anymore. everything i write, i delete or make private or tear up, because it doesn't come as easily to me as it used to. you think i would get better, but i guess the usual progression doesn't apply to me.

when does it, though?

i graduate school (again) in a month or so. i dread every single day i have to wake up and go there. i'm not good with routine, i guess.

i'm looking forward to getting a place with whoever is up for living with me. honestly, i can't wait. packing cardboard boxes and shopping at ikea is in my near future.

i feel like 2008 is going to be a good year. don't ask me why, i just have a feeling.

i'm over 2007, though.

endings and beginnings. i guess that's really all there is.

Current Mood: calm calm